Day 5 What the hizzy?

Today I did the Wii Fit again (it's an actual rest day on EA Active Sports--I checked twice lol). I did one of the Wii Fit Plus routine thingies. It was 41 minutes long (but took like an hour!) and a mixture of cardio (running), hula hooping (which I suck at btw), strength training (squats, lunges etc) yoga and posture/balance/relaxation stuff (a lot of it is standing still and focusing on not moving at all--not easy for me to do I guess lol).

Anyway I got it over and done with. Yaay. Now I can relax.

I made an interesting observation this morning...actually yesterday morning, but I wanted to see if it was just a 1 day thing. Since I started exercising daily, I have been gaining weight daily. I am so used to weighing myself daily from the HCG diet and staying within the +/- 2 lbs that it stuck and I continue to do it. Day 1+2, it was like +.6lbs, yesterday and today have been a whopping 2lbs a day increase! Protocol calls for a steak day, but I can't do red meat (it makes me gain even more) so I guess I'll do an egg day. What the hizzy though? You would think exercise would help you lose. The other thing that bugs me is that my pants are tighter! I will be starting the diet on the 10th...I'm REALLY tempted to start early, but I should follow the protocol and do the 8 wks I'm supposed to (I'm about to start phase 3). Whatever. We'll see. It's only been 5 days. If I continue to gain, I'll just quit the whole thing.

Haha! I'm TOTALLY j/k. I'm not gonna quit. Especially since I already know that I can do this. I'm a star! (deja vu).

Working tomorrow, so it'll be a late post.

Have a good night!

I can do all things in Christ who gives me strength! (Phil 4:13)

Day 328 (day 6 / week 46)

Today was a sad/angry day for me. I don't talk about much of the drama because it's boring. I may touch on it but I don't think I ever led on to how bad it is. My hubby hates my dog Pebbles. He hates her so much that we fight about her. Everyday. I got her into training, but he still isn't happy. He doesn't have the patience to wait for the potential I see in her. I had to give her back :(. She deserves better. She's a good dog.

I have been bawling all day, and when I haven't been, I have been on the verge of tears. I am so angry at the same time that my head hurts. My son knows she isn't around, but he keeps calling for her like she is going to come running. She won't :(.

I did some heavy cleaning, gathering her things, to give to Friends For Life (the people adopted her from and have an agreement with, that if we ever can't keep her anymore we would give her back to them so they could guarantee her a good home) and packed it all up in the car along with Pebbles and The Monkey boy. I drove 40+ miles to Pahrump (where it's colder), and said my good byes (the boy was sleeping so he didn't get to, which is probably a good thing...he loved her so much--at night before bed he always says, "i love you mama, i love you dada, i love you pebbles."). They told me she would be in an outside kennel with the rest of the dog until she is adopted, which breaks my heart (she is an inside dog). They didn't even put her blanket down for her to lay on (the concrete is so cold).

I have no right to be upset. It's my fault. I should have known better with my hubby. He is just like that and will never change. I told him that we will never again get another pet, although I grew up with them all around me and love them so much, but I just wont do this again. It's not fair, and he doesn't even care. Besides, to give her up like that, makes me feel like we don't deserve another pet. Ever. I just pray that she goes to a better home. Not like this one. I miss her and see traces of her everywhere. :(

*waah* *waah* *waah*

I did only 20 mins on the Wii Fit and walked a mile. I am just not in the mood.

I forgot about the 30DS. Oh well. 30 days will still be done. Just not in a row.

I can do this. I am a star.

Day 294 (day 7 / week 41)

Today has been a very exhausting day, which can be easily described with these few pictures:




I spent most of the day playing catch-up. It happened in a 10 minute period when I stopped off to Office Depot before attempting to drop off mail at my mom's house, to pick up some supplies for my class. The only thing taken was my diaper bag, which unfortunately had all of my notes and book for my ECG class. Could have been worse though, so I'm not complaining. No one was hurt, nothing else was taken, my mom and her hubby came and vacuumed my car/cleaned up the glass so I could call the insurance/police (whom did nothing btw...) and work director (since it was her book) AND my window was repaired in my driveway within 2 hours of it happening (great insurance/service--such a blessing).

This evening I managed to track down a copy of my book at Barnes & Noble and have been studying since. I managed to quickfire leg extensions while I was reading. I don't know how many I did (too many things to focus on), but it was a lot. A lot more than I had intended. lol. I even got on the Wii Fit this morning, but only for a few minutes. Nothing really worth mentioning (it's so much fun).

Despite all that happened, the day was really a blessing, because of how well everything flowed. God is awesome.

I plan to take the dog to the vet tomorrow after class. Hopefully the class doesn't last as long as it's scheduled for. Please send prayers and good thoughts my way for my class tomorrow and for Pebbles. I really hope she doesn't need surgery and that I will be caught up to the rest of the class (2 completely separate thoughts lol)!

I can do this. I am a star.

Day 267 (day 1 / week 38)

Today was supposed to be the start of my days off. It wasn't. I got called into work.

It was another really busy day. I'm surprised I got everything done, and got out of work physically and mentally unscathed. I didn't sleep well and have a headache, but at least I don't have to work tomorrow. I do have to go in though. I am doing the Walk From Obesity this weekend, so I need to go pick up the shirt tomorrow for it. I hate the thought of going into work on a day off. Such a waste of a day-off. I still don't have many details. I just know that it's at 8am at a park here in Vegas near the hospital.

I did my stairs today, even quickfired them coming down them to go home. I love the quickfire concept. I heart sparkpeople.

Yesterday I found out that I probably wouldn't be able to do the biggest loser thing at work, because I couldn't pay them that exact day. I was mad. What difference does it make if I pay it now, or when I can in a few weeks? It's not like the money is going anywhere, or that I am going to win and not pay at all or something. A lovely coworker said she was going to talk to the lady and tell her that it's ok that I participate and pay later. If I can't participate, it's not the end of the world as I am already doing my own thing. It's not about a diet for me :). We all know this though.

Hubby is frustrated w/ the dog and boy. Should probably go relieve him. He's not a happy camper w/ the dog. He's not very patient though....

See you tomorrow! It IS TOTALLY my day off this time... I am SO looking forward to it too :).

Have a good night!

I can do this. I am a star

Day 213 (day 3 / week 31)

Today I started my C25K (Couch to 5K) training. I modified it a little bit, because I am not coming straight from the couch, and I have been pre-training for some time for this (I guess I could say that lol) ;). Today I walked/race walked/jogged 4.8 miles in 80 minutes and burned roughly around 1500 calories (my HRM has been very bad and is in time out for a while). I would be in the middle of a jogging spurt, and my HRM would drop to 67 and crawl back up to 116 and stay there. I probably spent more time struggling with my HRM than "training." I started to think today if starting a C25K program is smart, with having to work and all and I feel that if it's meant for me to do, God will make it happen.

So I get home and I am venting to my hubby about my HRM and
are you ready for this....

God must have provision for me to exercise while I am working, because he has just provided me with a...

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treadmill!!!!

*happy dance* *running man* *cabbage patch*

I am SO excited I cried when I sat down to think about the blessing I had just been given! God really DOES approve (not that I had any doubt--confirmation is always nice though :) :))!

Last night we went to a buffet again with my in-laws. I did the same thing as last week when we went, so I didn't break the bank again :) (see, it's not a fluke!). Anyway we were talking about the Monkey Boy and what time I would have to leave our house to get him to his Papa's in the morning, so I could be at work before 7am. We decided that we are just going to have to get a bed over to their house and have the Monkey Boy spend the night on the days that I have to work because when the winter comes, it's going to be too much to bring him out there at 5:45am. We haven't made any set plans yet as we are still feeling it out. We will know more when I start work.

So anyway this morning after I exercised, my MIL called and talked to my hubby for a while, then he said she wanted to talk to me. She said that since they are going to be putting a bed in the Monkey Boy's room at their house, they need to do something with their treadmill and asked me if I had room in my exercise room and if I wanted to use it! The first thing I thought of was that I can't take her treadmill because she uses it everyday (she doesn't need mental tricks to exercise like me, she just does it). She said that the weather is changing and she will be able to get outside to walk soon, so it's not a problem. Wow.

I really didn't know how I was going to get outside before or after work to exercise, becuase it will be dark during both times. I was kind of preparing myself mentally to walk in the dark, but I really didn't want to. I figured I would end up doing a video or something (which I'm getting bored with) so this is just a HUGE blessing. How awesome is that!! I will be able to do my C25K training, in my own home!!! Yaay! AND my MIL's neighbor is getting rid of a new weight bench (no weights) and asked her to ask me if I wanted it! Yaay! He reigns and it pours!

Ok onto the juicy stuff.

My measurements:

Measurements: (day 213 / 182 / day 10) (- "/# lost in current month)

Wt: 192.0 / 195.2 / 215 (-3.20) (total lost 23#)
Chest: 37.5" / 37.75" / 43.75"(-0.25") (total lost -6.25")
Waist: 32.5" / 33" / 41.5" (-0.50") (total lost -9")
Hips: 42" / 42.5" / 47.75" (-0.50") (total lost -5.75")
Neck: 12.75" / 13" / 14.25" (-0.25") (total lost -1.55")
Under bust: 32" / 33" / 36.75" (-1") (total lost -4.75")
1" below belly button: 38.5" / 40.5" / 47.5" (-2") (total lost -9")
Above my thigh: 37.75" / 39.5" / 44" (-1.75") (total lost -6.25")
R Thigh: 18.75" / 19" / 27" (-0.25") (total lost -8.25")
L Thigh: 19" / 19.5" / 27.5" (-0.50") (total lost -8.50")
R Calf: 14" / 14.25" / 14.5" (-0.25") (total lost -0.50")
L Calf: 14.25" / 14.5" / 14" (-0.25") (total lost -.25")
R upper Arm: 10.5" / 11" / 14" (-0.50") (total lost -3.5")
L upper Arm: 10.75" / 11.5" / 13.5" (-0.75") (total lost -2.75")
R wrist: 5.75" / 5.75" / 6.25" (-0") (total lost -0.5")
L wrist: 5.75" / 5.75" / 6.25" (-0") (total lost -0.5")

Jan 2009

Feb 2009

March 2009

April 1, 2009

May 1, 2009

June 1, 2009

July 1, 2009August 1, 2009

In July 2009 I lost 3.2 lbs and 8.75 inches! Yaay! *happy dance* It's not as much as I was losing to start off with, but it's more than last month!

I really feel great and I think that is the best measure of success. I can do so many things that I couldn't before, and I feel stronger and I AM stronger. I am still "obese" but that is temporary and not permanent! I can't believe I am almost into the 180s!!

I don't know if I mentioned this before, but my original start weight is 240 from 2007. Once I hit 190 it will mean that I have lost a total of 50 lbs. Yaay!

Ok well I am off to have fun! Have a great weekend and make it count! If I can do this, so can you! We just gotta take one day at a time :). I am living proof!

I can do this. I am a star.

day 174 (day 6 / week 25)

The Quickfire Challenges (QFC) I mentioned yesterday are kicking my butt! Today my sides are sore from yesterday, and my legs are still a bit sore from the day before. I ended up doing Level 3 of the 30 Day Shred (day 23) and I also did The Biggest Loser Workout--only the warm-up, the low intensity portion and a few minutes of the cool down, because the Monkey Boy came to bother me a few minutes into it. All good. So I got in around an hours worth, not including the quickfire challenge today which is 4 sets of 20 jumping jacks, all throughout the day, to spike the metabolism (I've done 2 of those sets already). She also has us doing (well it's actually "and/or" but I chose "and") 4-5 sets of 20-25 Side Lunge With Windmill Arms. These, like the jumping jacks have elevated my heart, but they are a bit harder, becuase my obliques and glutes are sore and I can really feel these muscles when I do them. If I weren't sore, they would probably be pretty simple and easy to do.

I am a bit disappointed in myself and in general, and a bit angry as well. I weighed myself today and I have gained 5 lbs (I'm back up to 199!) and 4% body fat! I don't understand this at all. I NEVER go over my calories and I NEVER have cheat days! I watch everything and count everything that I put into my mouth, so it doesn't make any sense. If I can't count it, I don't eat it. It really irritates me because people say "exercise more, and eat less" or "do something more active then you already are" like I have no idea what I am doing, or as if I haven't been doing this for over 6 months straight. Everything is accounted for. Even my own mother takes jabs and makes snide/ignorant remarks. It makes me angry that my body fat % went up but I guess I can accept 5lbs, if it is muscle, but I will never know. I did some measurements because I was concerned with the weight gain, to see if anything changed, and some things got bigger (calves) most things stayed the same, and I lost a few quarters of an inch in other places. It's almost the end of the month and I am afraid I won't be losing many inches again :(. Stupid scale. I am so irritated that I weighed myself. I feel like this is all for nothing right now, and this couldn't have come at a worse time, especially since I have been trying to do more. Why on earth would I want to bust my hump even more than I already am, for nothing?

Am I obviously oblivious to something that everyone else including you guys see, that I don't? Please help!

I guess I'm gonna go do some more jumping jacks.

Sorry for the rant...

Make today count.

I can do this. I am a star.