I still don't feel well. I have no appetite and my stomach hurts. We sent the kids to bed early for fighting (best decision ever!) So I get to go to bed early too.
I forced myself on the elliptical tonight and was only able to do 10 mins. Better than nothing. I really hope I wake up better!
One day at a time. One choice at a time.
I can do all things in Christ who gives me strength
I have been feeling less than normal all day. I have a sour stomach, body aches, a headache and I feel exhausted and nauseous. Ugh. I drank a lot of water and didn't each much. I feel yucky.
I just worked on biceps and shoulders today, 3 sets of 10 with 5# bicep curls and shoulder shrugs with static holds. My arms wobbled and shook the whole time. I need to sleep this off. Hubby said he could hear my stomach from across the room. I need to sleep this off. I pray I wake up better. I have a busy day tomorrow!
One choice at a time. one day at a time.
I can do all things in Christ who gives me strength.
10 days to go till the new year...
Tuesday December 22, 2009
A busy workday. 15,024 steps (7.11 miles). Man it was cold and windy. I was glad that it was my last workday for the week. Woo hoo!
I can do this. I am a star.
I want to start off and thank everyone for your kind words and encouragement. You all had such encouraging things to say and you all are right.
Yesterday was a bad day for me so I threw all my chips on the table to see what I had, and today I am going to make a new start with a different mentality (hopefully it will stick).
You guys are right, going into this I didn't have any number but 365 in mind. Now that it's been 6 months, yes I have lost weight and inches, and yes I can do things I couldn't before, but I am still obese, and people still see me that way. You wouldn't know by looking at me that I stay within a set caloric range and exercise daily. I feel like a thin person trapped inside of a huge disgusting body. People that know me don't even think I have stuck with exercising because I am still fat. My husband knows, because he is there. My own mother that I see on a weekly basis is even rude about it (I know I need to give her a word or 2, but it's hard to say something to her--she's my mom!). I could jog laps around every single one of these people that judge me, but no one knows this but me. Everyone (including myself) expects me to be skinny by now. I want to cry out that I am healthy, or get a custom made shirt to prove it (lol), but I won't ever be truly healthy until I am no longer obese and overweight. I need to get over this. You guys are right, if I am in this for the long haul, it needs to be about the healthy lifestyle first, and weight loss second. BUT (and this is a big butt...hehehe) the sad truth is that I need to lose weight in order to get there. I am obese. The only way this will change is if I lose weight. I never wanted this to be about losing weight, but in order to reach the ultimate goal of being healthy, I HAVE to.
The other day when I did the calorie calculation, I nonchalantly mentioned my goal weight--135, but it could have been easily overlooked (I meant for it to be that way). I even went as far as to say that I wanted to reach this by Jan 1, 2010, which is a very healthy goal if I lose 2 lbs a week (this is obviously not happening).To do the calculation you need to have a goal weight in mind, so I picked the highest weight in the recommended range (medical) for my height--102-135. Once I reach 135, anything is possible from there. On my sparkpage, I have weight goals written as well:
1) 200 lbs (done)
2) 180 lbs (although lately 190 has been a big goal)
3) 150 lbs
4) 135 lbs
...heck! Anything is possible NOW I just need to stop having wavering faith and just keep high faith that I can do this, because He gives me the strength to!
Ellie is right. It's not as simple as calories in and calories out. I say that a lot, and I am a douche. It has everything to do with quality of food. I need to work on this. Right now I just fit inside of a number, but if I want chips, I make room in my number bank so that I can have chips. I do this with ice cream too (sugar free, which my hubby really hates that I eat lmao) I still fit in the number. If I wanted to eat chips or ice cream all day long and still fit in my range, that would not be good. I don't do that, because I have learned (about myself) that when I do eat junk, it makes me hungrier and crave more junk (another danger zone). I do need to work on quality though. Better quality. This is a habit I want to stick around forever.
I also need to start watching salt. This is so easy to lose track of! Did you know that a recommended serving of salt is 1 teaspoon a day? I always knew salt wasn't great for you but I honestly thought it was a typo or a spoken mistake when I heard 1 tsp for the first time. I thought "maybe they mean 1 Tablespoon." WOW (not the world of warcraft wow either...lol). Watching Rachael Ray and all of the food network stars at play, blows my mind--they throw salt in their creations like it's nothing! I don't eat this much salt but I bet it's more than 1 tsp a day.
Anyway enough of that. I have a lot to work on and I feel so blessed that you guys are here to support me on my strongest and weakest days. You guys are my stars in a dark sky!
Today I woke up early, did my no computer thing *cry* and man I was SO sore! The standing oblique crunches that I did the other day kicked me hard. Yesterday the windmill lunge things made the lung/knee things from my first Quickfire Challenge kick in again. Today I am feeling everything...which is good. It means my body isn't used to this and it will adapt! Yaay!!! The quickfire for today was to do 100 total (in groups of 20-25) straight leg tricep dips on a chair--which I can't do yet, so I opted to do the 2nd--wall push ups. These feel harmless, but I'm sure I will feel them tomorrow. 5 sets of 20 or 4 of 25 (just get to 100 anyway you can).
Before this, I turned on the 30 day shred (level 1 day 24). I was way too sore to do that. I got about 10 minutes in and had to turn it off. I felt so stiff and could barely move the way she wanted us to. Then put on Turbo Jam's Turbo Sculpt and could only get through 5 mins of that, so I put on Ab Jam and did the 20 minutes. Turbo Jam made me feel a little better because a lot of the movements are very long and stretchy. 35 minutes in all, but I was feeling really sore. I do feel better now (not so stiff and sore), and want to go try to do the 30 day shred again. Hopefully the Monkey Boy will go down so that I can try again. I am calling today a (non)rest day regardless, just because being so sore, I need to take it easy. If I don't get back to it today, I am not going to beat myself up because I don't want to make things worse for tomorrow!
Thank you again for your support and help! I don't have the words to describe how amazing it feels to have someone help you up when you fall. It's just such a blessing!
Make today count! I am because you guys are helping me to! Every step of the way!
I can do this. I am a star!
Today is an exciting day and so this excitement followed me into the exercise room. I am a little sore today from yesterday's walk and then doing level 3 of The Shred (mainly my feet/ankles), so today I just did level 3 and no walk. I might do level 1 or 2 later. We'll see. I don't really like level 2... do you guys think it's punking out if I just go from level 1 to 3, like I did, or must I do level 2 also? lol. I really like level 3. really, really like it :). I don't remember why I don't like level 2, so maybe I should do it today, and remember why... lol. Maybe I won't dislike it anymore! lol
My mom is going to drop off the grill that I scrubbed not too long ago for my hubby's father's day present today! So exciting! I looked at it the other day and the outside looks horrible due to sun exposure. It looks 15 years old from the outside, but the inside is beautimus! I am going to use some furniture spray on it (cause it's greasy), and maybe it will give it all 1 color, instead the sun bleached look. Either way I am excited. My hubby already knows about it, so he won't be surprised, but I can't wait to see his reaction on the inside of the grill...he has seen it before and even had a convo on how much buildup was on it.
Tomorrow I think I am going to go buy some bbq paint for him, so we can paint the inside (it's a dull aluminum right now--still with some dark spots under the elements), and that can be his prezzy, since he already knows about the grill. It'll be a 2 parter--kind of like my exercise lol. I mentioned it here, so that means that I have to follow through and go and.... j/k! That's what I have to do w/ a 2 parter exercise though...lol (so sad).
I didn't eat enough yesterday but I was so full! I have been training myself to eat low calorie foods, so when I have to pack it in on my high exercise days, it's so hard! Last night by like 8pm I was realizing that I needed to get in another 300-400 calories for the day, and I was like "cereal--no that's only 180 calories at most" "fruit--no that's like 80 calories at most, id have to eat the entire container (chopped watermelon, canteloupe and honeydew)!" Then I remembered my ice cream. My sweet sweet ice cream. *drool* It's sugar free, so my eating it only bothers my hubby lol. I had enough fat and carbs left for the day that it wouldn't make a difference if I had any so I served up almost a full cup of it. I ate one bite, got distracted, put it in the freezer to harden up a little bit, and totally forgot about it! So I didn't eat enough. Oh well, such is life. I can have it for breakfast now! No? lol
Make it count! Do some sumo jumps. You can pretend to be a frog, and get exercise in at the same time. *ribbit* (silly rabbit! Frogs don't eat ice cream!).
I can do this. I am a star.
Right now, I have a set workout that I do everyday (Slim in 6), but I really believe that we should listen to our bodies, and let our body make that final decision for us on the intensity (in regards to soreness--not laziness ;)). Yesterday my back felt achy. Today my chest hurts, in the same spot where back feels achy, but in the front (again, probably from roughhousing with Jason--wont I ever learn??? lol). My chest is so achy that I had to take some Advil this morning, and I'm about due again (starting to get pretty uncomfortable again).
Because of how achy I still feel, I decided to make today a (non)rest day. I don't think it would be wise to lift weights, or do any push ups feeling this way. I don't want to make a small problem bigger. I did Slim & 6pack, an 11 min ab workout, and Slim & Limber, a 15 minute stretch routine, to give my achy back and chest muscles a rest. I still feel a little achy, but I feel great (stretching always does that). I can stretch a lot deeper now, and because I have both routines memorized, I can really focus on the muscle contractions (for abs) and the breath going into the muscles (while stretching), with my eyes being closed. It's a great feeling.
Hope everyone is having a happy heart day! Give your heart a gift and go do some exercise instead of giving it away :).
I can do this. I am a star.
Yesterday I was roughhousing with my hubby again (pretty hard), and I woke up feeling it this morning (yes, we still act like we are in grade school lol). I woke up at 5 because I had errands to run and I felt pretty achy for most of the morning (almost like I bruised rib). Logan was in one of his moods (again) so I put him down for a nap, and sure enough it stuck! Yaay for napping cranky children!
I did only 40 minutes of "Burn It Up" today. I guess I'm in a lazy mood, I'm cold and I am also kind of tired (I have a "tired" headache). I guess all that matters is that I exercised! yaay!
Anyway hope everyone has a great workout and a great hallmark holiday! See you tomorrow :).
I can do this. I am a star.
Today I started to do "Burn It Up" but I just felt really achy and exhausted. I decided to to my "Slim in Limber" video to stretch, and then 20 minutes of strength training, with my 5# hand weights. I did, lateral shoulder raises (2/28), tricep extensions (2/28), bicep curls (2/28), push ups (3/15) and for my lats, upright rows--I think that's what it's called--(1/28).
Some of you might wonder "why 2 sets of 28 reps?" I did this because I do 20 reps normally (for muscle endurance), and then I hold the 20th, and then I do 8 reps fast = 28 :). My plan was to do the same with the push ups, but I just cant do that many at one time. I can do 15 at one time, but I'm toasted and burned after that.
I did a lot of lifting boxes again today.
I almost forgot! My measurements! I did them the same way I did a month ago, and I added some, because I...well I'm anal like that (lol). I want to know everywhere that I am losing inches. I wish I would have taken them last month because this month I am disappointed with the numbers, but they are only numbers and will continue to drop, so I wont trip out about it. I don't know if I want to post my pic, but I guess I will. I am not comfortable with it at all, but I guess I'll get over it eventually, because it will only get better...
(not really any difference)
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