Day 219 (day 2 / week 32)

Sorry this post is so late today. I got finished exercising early in the day, but I procrastinated blogging...lol. I changed my background again...if you were having problems, does this help? I have already gotten 1 no, so this isn't going to stay, I just want to see if it helps any of the other problems.

This morning I walked my 2 miles and including my warm up and cool down, it took me 45 minutes (511 calories). Today this scary looking roidhead in his truck coming my way, started honking at me when I was about 1.5 blocks away (had to have been me cause I was the only one on the road--no other cars or anything and that road is just walls from side to side, no houses you can see). He turned down the street in front of me (at this point I was a block away), he stopped and got out, leaving his truck still running! He walked to the corner and looked like he was ready to scrap. SO SCARY. I just prayed that he wouldn't mess with me at all or say anything to me. God was listening cause he must have mistaken me for someone else or something, cause when I got close enough, he didn't say anything--didn't even look me in the face. When I passed by him, he was in my personal space, that's how close he was. I kept looking at my shadow cause I was so afraid this guy was going to do something bad. I high tailed it out of there faster than Hal and Phoebe put together (if she was a speed walker). When I came back that way (I walk 1 mile and turn around and go back the same way) he was gone. *whew* That's why I burned like 100 more calories this morning instead of my usual 400 or so. That got my blood pumping!

Today was a really nice day. It only got up to like 95ish, so I knew I wanted to go for a long walk with the Monkey Boy. Around noonish we left the house (not even 90 yet!) and I planned on walking 5.5 miles, but when I got to the point where I can go an extra mile, I decided to just go home. I walked 4.5 miles in 90 minutes and burned 1090 calories. Today was a high day on my calorie cycle, so that's a good thing :).

All in all, it was a good day, despite the crazy douche... lol

See you guys tomorrow! Hope you made today count...if not, make tomorrow count!

I can do this. I am a star.

day 135 (day 2 / week 20)

Today I started off my workout (Ramp It up from Slim in 6) with the word of the day, from yesterday, resonating in my mind....boredom. If I think I'm going to be bored with my workout, then I'm going to be bored with my workout. Why am I letting myself be self defeating? I am a star! I can do this and have been doing this! I know I can do this!

With that attitude in mind, I didn't focus on the workout anymore, but on my body. My muscles. My movement. My breathing. The task at hand. I just closed my eyes and focused. You'll be surprised with what you can accomplish when you approach every task with this kind of focus. Before I knew it, I had done every single second of Ramp It Up, as if I had been doing it for a month straight...including those tedious leg lifts! I did EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM--IN A ROW! I definitely felt the burn, but that burn just made me focus even more!

The moment I decided to let go of the workout and focus on my body, my entire focus of the workout changed. I am no longer thinking about the mundane and monotonous workout--the time that it takes to complete it, but that the more I do this, the stronger I am going to get.

A friend of mine that lives next door to my in-laws here in Vegas, runs every Saturday morning with her "running group." When we first moved here and she saw that I had been losing weight, she asked me if I wanted to go running with her. First I thought, "wow that would be a great way to lose this weight faster" but then reality set in and I kind of chuckled in the back of my head thinking, "that's a good one, a fat girl 'running.'" But instead of saying "no," I said, "when I have a pair of running shoes that fit me w/out causing pain, I will go running with you," knowing fully well that that wasn't going to happen. I think it was the next weekend that my MIL bought me these shoes (I love them so much!).

I saw my friend the week after I got these shoes and I was still on the high from being able to fit in these shoes, that I mentioned to her that I had them now. Well she invited me then. The idea of going to run, is more exhilarating to me at this point, than doing it. I am scared! She said she would email me some information and we left it at that.

Two days ago I got that information and it's been gnawing at the nape of my neck ever since. When it was just the thought of her and I running, I was ok with it. Now she has a runner friend coming too! They want to run 5 miles for 2 hours. How on earth am I supposed to do this??? I have not ran a single step in a VERY long time--at least 5 years. I used to run all the time when I was fit, but I had some problems with my foot, that I am afraid will come back to haunt me.

All of this went through my mind as I found my focus in my workout today. How will I ever become a "runner" and get into the best shape of my life, if I don't just do it? My friend knows that I am overweight (duh it's obvious lol) and she knows that I will probably not be able to run like her and her friend. She knows she will probably have to stop for me a million times, and she still wants me to come (I think, lol). What's the worst that will happen? I go and all of this happens--I'll stop, my foot will hurt, I will have to walk, I'll slow them down, annoy her friend, yadda-yadda-yadda. No the worst thing that would happen, is that I think about it, and that's all that I do. "What if I went running with her?" "Would I have been able to do it?"

I think I'm going to do it. I woke up this morning planning my email to her, telling her why I couldn't do it. I will tell her exactly how I feel, and if she still wants me to go, I will. If she doesn't, then I will go running in my own neighborhood, by myself, just to see how I do. What's the worst that could happen? I find out that it's just not the right time for me yet, and I know, not assume, but actually know :).

It amazes me that when God sees us grabbing for the strength to do something, He gives it to us. We can do all things in Christ, who gives us the strength to do it! ALL THINGS. (Philippians 4:13).

I can do this. I am a star!