Day 150

Today was an awful, awful day. I was anxious coming into work today because I feel like they were setting me up for failure and boy did they. I would have quit and walked out but I guess that would be considered patient abandonment and I'd probably have a pretty hard time trying to find another job in this industry if I left that way.it was a really stressful and anxiety filed day and knowing that I'm going to be forced to do this again soon makes me really anxious. It's not safe or a healthy work environment.

I woke up early this morning (anxiety) and just got on the elliptical. I did 15 minutes and then got ready for work. Praise God that I'm off tomorrow.  I wish it was possible to find a weekend only, part time 12 hour position before next weekend bc I REALLY don't want to go back. Ever.

One day at a time. One choice at a time.

I can do all things in Christ who gives me strength.

Day 149

This morning I got on to the elliptical trainer for 15 minutes before work and I'm glad that I did. I honestly didn't think I was going to wake up earlier and I definitely wasn't trying to. It just happened that way LOL

I have a big day tomorrow at work and it's causing me a lot of anxiety. I'm hoping that I can fall asleep and sleep throughout the night without  waking up multiple times. If I wake up early like today,and I feel energized, I'll get onto the elliptical, but we'll see. I already feel like I'm being set up for failure for tomorrow at work so I don't want to set myself up for failure with this.

Hopefully it works out for the best.

One day at a time. One choice at a time.

I can do all things in Christ who gives me strength.

Day 120

I got some really good sleep last night. I was able to get up early this morning and get on the elliptical for 43 minutes. It's so much easier to continue with great habits when you start with great habits first thing in the morning. And it's also a huge sigh of relief when the day starts to wind down and I've already completed a chunk of exercise. It just makes it that much easier.

Off to work in the morning. I pray this weekend silk be ok. Looking forward to Monday when it'll be over!

One day at a time. One choice at a time.

I can do all things in Christ who gives me strength.

Day 119

I'm posting this a day late because I did not feel well at all yesterday. I've been really stressed and I've had a lot of anxiety due to some changes that I've had at work. I'm really surprised at how it affecting me physically. I'm also really surprised  to see that I AM a stress eater. I don't think I ever realized that about myself or maybe my stress levels have just never been this high. I'm trying to find another job and just put this passed me.

I forced myself to do 3 sets of 10 lunges and then I fell asleep. I was out cold for the rest of the night. It's probably the best sleep that I had gotten in a long time. Oye.

One day at a time. One choice at a time.

I can do all things in Christ who gives me strength.

Day 115

Today I worked and it was a much better day than yesterday even though I didn't get enough sleep. I had so much anxiety that I was up between 3am and 5am, and when I finally fell asleep my alarm went off to go to work.

So tired. ..

Anyway, I did a ton of shoulder shrugs,  like 10 sets of 10 (need to increase resistance) and 4 sets of 10 front deltoid extensions.

Offto bed.

One day at a time. One choice at a time.

I can do all things in Christ who gives me strength.

Day 58

Today was a really crappy day. I am being audited by the state of NV state Board of nursing for my CNA certification (random audit), and I can't find proof of all of my CEUs. I'm super anal and always have my stuff together and completed. I have never been audited before so I just figured if/when I was,  I can just print my certificates from work. I started to do that,  but I can't find 21 minutes worth. They revamped the program we use and it's gone! I need 24 hours and I can inly find 23.65 hours worth. I have to call education on Monday, and if they can't help me,  then I might possibly have my certification taken away. This is awful :( the waiting till Monday to possibly get this resolved is killing me.

I am so not in the mood to exercise. I'm anxious and worried and I have a huge knot in my stomach. I did 3 sets of 10 squats and lunges. I hate today and am gonna go to bed.

One day at a time. one choice at a time.

I can do all things in Christ who gives me strength.

Philippians 4:6–7

6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Day 270 (day 4 / week 38)

Today I walked on the treadmill.

I think a week or two ago my hubby's grandmother, "Gram," told me that I could take her treadmill home and use it, because she knows that I will actually use it :). I love this thing. It hasn't ever been calibrated so the numbers are very wrong, but it works, and I have a HRM so that's all that I need for what I'm trying to accomplish :). It has an incline and these handles that a lot of the elliptical machines do, to do the cross country ski type movement (really long brain fart...I can't remember what they are called to save my life!). I put it on the highest incline and almost 3 mph (this number can't be right) and just go for the same amount of time that I do when I am walking the streets.

Today I did 33 minutes. When I walk 33 minutes on the streets, I walk a little over 2 miles. The treadmill said I walked 1.08 miles and burned 58 calories. My HRM said I burned 429 calories, which I believe, because my average HR per min was 135 (58 calories in 33 minutes? Pssht!). Anyway I am just so grateful to have the treadmill to use at home. Such a blessing. Now I just have to have my hubby mount the TV on the wall or something so that I don't have to stare at a corner in the room lol. I can probably go for a lot longer if I had something to look at or do. Maybe I will read the book that Gram let me borrow, Be Anxious For Nothing, by Joyce Meyer, the art of casting your cares and resting in God. I love Joyce Meyer. She's awesome. This book is right up my alley because it's basically all about my favorite scripture Phil 4:4-7(;13) and applying it better to my life.

Hope you all have a great Sunday. What kinds of things are you doing to make it count? We all can help give eachother ideas :).

I work tomorrow, so it will be another late post.

I can do this. I am a star.