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Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Day 328 (day 6 / week 46)

Today was a sad/angry day for me. I don't talk about much of the drama because it's boring. I may touch on it but I don't think I ever led on to how bad it is. My hubby hates my dog Pebbles. He hates her so much that we fight about her. Everyday. I got her into training, but he still isn't happy. He doesn't have the patience to wait for the potential I see in her. I had to give her back :(. She deserves better. She's a good dog.

I have been bawling all day, and when I haven't been, I have been on the verge of tears. I am so angry at the same time that my head hurts. My son knows she isn't around, but he keeps calling for her like she is going to come running. She won't :(.

I did some heavy cleaning, gathering her things, to give to Friends For Life (the people adopted her from and have an agreement with, that if we ever can't keep her anymore we would give her back to them so they could guarantee her a good home) and packed it all up in the car along with Pebbles and The Monkey boy. I drove 40+ miles to Pahrump (where it's colder), and said my good byes (the boy was sleeping so he didn't get to, which is probably a good thing...he loved her so much--at night before bed he always says, "i love you mama, i love you dada, i love you pebbles."). They told me she would be in an outside kennel with the rest of the dog until she is adopted, which breaks my heart (she is an inside dog). They didn't even put her blanket down for her to lay on (the concrete is so cold).

I have no right to be upset. It's my fault. I should have known better with my hubby. He is just like that and will never change. I told him that we will never again get another pet, although I grew up with them all around me and love them so much, but I just wont do this again. It's not fair, and he doesn't even care. Besides, to give her up like that, makes me feel like we don't deserve another pet. Ever. I just pray that she goes to a better home. Not like this one. I miss her and see traces of her everywhere. :(

*waah* *waah* *waah*

I did only 20 mins on the Wii Fit and walked a mile. I am just not in the mood.

I forgot about the 30DS. Oh well. 30 days will still be done. Just not in a row.

I can do this. I am a star.

4 comments:

Sandy said...

Hey Melissa,
Like you said on day 326, God is faithful. People fail us. God doesn't.

Miriam the Mommy said...

Oh sweetie, I know it hurts, but really your domestic harmony is more important, although the process of achieving it STINKS! :)

Hang in there!

Erin said...

Ugh!

Chris and Annalisa said...

I'm so sorry to hear that! My heart hurts for you. My parents had to put our dog down almost a year ago and I still get teary when I think of her. I can't imagine having to voluntarily give away a piece of your family. :(