day 174 (day 6 / week 25)

The Quickfire Challenges (QFC) I mentioned yesterday are kicking my butt! Today my sides are sore from yesterday, and my legs are still a bit sore from the day before. I ended up doing Level 3 of the 30 Day Shred (day 23) and I also did The Biggest Loser Workout--only the warm-up, the low intensity portion and a few minutes of the cool down, because the Monkey Boy came to bother me a few minutes into it. All good. So I got in around an hours worth, not including the quickfire challenge today which is 4 sets of 20 jumping jacks, all throughout the day, to spike the metabolism (I've done 2 of those sets already). She also has us doing (well it's actually "and/or" but I chose "and") 4-5 sets of 20-25 Side Lunge With Windmill Arms. These, like the jumping jacks have elevated my heart, but they are a bit harder, becuase my obliques and glutes are sore and I can really feel these muscles when I do them. If I weren't sore, they would probably be pretty simple and easy to do.

I am a bit disappointed in myself and in general, and a bit angry as well. I weighed myself today and I have gained 5 lbs (I'm back up to 199!) and 4% body fat! I don't understand this at all. I NEVER go over my calories and I NEVER have cheat days! I watch everything and count everything that I put into my mouth, so it doesn't make any sense. If I can't count it, I don't eat it. It really irritates me because people say "exercise more, and eat less" or "do something more active then you already are" like I have no idea what I am doing, or as if I haven't been doing this for over 6 months straight. Everything is accounted for. Even my own mother takes jabs and makes snide/ignorant remarks. It makes me angry that my body fat % went up but I guess I can accept 5lbs, if it is muscle, but I will never know. I did some measurements because I was concerned with the weight gain, to see if anything changed, and some things got bigger (calves) most things stayed the same, and I lost a few quarters of an inch in other places. It's almost the end of the month and I am afraid I won't be losing many inches again :(. Stupid scale. I am so irritated that I weighed myself. I feel like this is all for nothing right now, and this couldn't have come at a worse time, especially since I have been trying to do more. Why on earth would I want to bust my hump even more than I already am, for nothing?

Am I obviously oblivious to something that everyone else including you guys see, that I don't? Please help!

I guess I'm gonna go do some more jumping jacks.

Sorry for the rant...

Make today count.

I can do this. I am a star.

Day 53 (day 4 / week 8)

I'm so excited, yet a little disappointed in myself. I think I just realized that I sabotaged my current workout program. I am only 3 or 4 days into The Biggest Loser Workout, and I am not enjoying myself at all. I like the strength and sculpt, but that just makes sense, because back when I was a gym rat, I always enjoyed weightlifting more than cardio. This program makes my knees hurt more than they have been. I really have to force myself to do the jumping jacks because I despise them. I really do (my knees just hurt so much doing over 60 in a row). I hope this glucosamine starts working soon. I don't remember how long ago I started taking it, but I'm waiting patiently!

*knocks on knee* You in there yet, glucosamine??

Anyway, how I sabotaged this program was (and I'm SO excited) was that my hubby gave me the "go ahead" to buy Turbo Jam Maximum Results! YAAY!!! He said that because I have stuck to exercising, and have done it for almost 3 months in a row, that it wouldn't be wasting money to buy it, and he said it wasn't that expensive (compared to his new $300 toy). I know it's crappy of me, but as soon as I get it, The Biggest Loser Workout is going back on the shelf for later on in the year, when my knees feel better. I know it's coming in the back of my head, so I'm not working, like this program is my last resort. I'm so excited! I can't wait until it gets here!

Today I didn't want to exercise. My in-laws left this morning, and I am just exhausted! I wanted to be up by 5:30 this morning to exercise, but my hubby "let" me sleep until 6:30. I should probably replace him with a real alarm clock on the weekends, because he always lets me sleep in. It's sweet and all, but I have stuff to do (*ahem* exercise) before our baby-doll wakes up, ya know? So I really struggled to exercise. I skipped the warm up and the cool down, and just did the Low Intensity Cardio. I really hope Turbo Jam gets here soon.... lol.

We got home at 9pm last night, so I wasn't able to workout again. I had a feeling this would happen, with relatives visiting and all, so I'm not too disappointed. At least I did something!

Hope everyone is having a great weekend and workout!

See you tomorrow :).

I can do this. I am a star.