Day 56 (day 7 / week 8)

Today I went for a long walk with Logan (a little over an hour). I don't know how fast I walked, but my bottom and hamstrings are a little sore now. I put 30 min walk on sparkpeople.com, just becuase I didn't know and that was the slowest I could do. It was extremely windy and I was fortunate enough to walk against the wind on the way there, and again, on the way home *sarcasm.* I was breathing pretty heavily, almost like I was walking up a hill or something (I wasn't, but it totally felt like it!). My face hurts from the cold wind and it was only 45 so I'm a total wimp. Yesterday after Logan woke up from his nap, we went for a walk then also, and it was nice (unlike today). We will probably go for another walk again (if my feet can handle it--horrible shoes!) after he wakes up from his nap :).

I am sitting here typing this and feeling almost like if I don't do the 30 Day Shred today, that I will be totally coping out. I was completely ready to just use my walk as my exercise today, but it's not the kind of exercise that is going to get me below 200 any time soon. I really want to get this fat off of me, and no one else, no matter how nice, sweet and generous they are, can do it for me. I want to fit into my skinny clothes again. It seems like because I was really fit once before, that I am having to work that much harder now, just to drop the weight. Knowing this and not doing something, feels like I am consciously letting myself down. I don't want my son to ever remember that his mama was this big.

I think I just talked myself into doing the 30 Day Shred lol.

(28 mins later)

I am so glad that I talked myself into pushing play. Today was day 3 and I did level 1 again. I am so that I did this. SO GLAD. I'm a "what if?" kind of person, and now I won't have to wonder "What if I didn't stop at day 3?" cause I did it! Yaay! I decided that when Turbo Jam comes (it's in Hodgkins, IL right now according to the tracking number) I wont do it until I am done with the 30 day Shred. I know I am going to see amazing results from this video and I am excited to see what they are.

I am pumped, all sweaty and need to go push the furniture back (yes, I have to move furniture everyday to exercise--don't use lack of space as an excuse!). I had my hair all pretty and straight, and now I have a pony tail wonk also (stupid wonk) lol. So lovely :).

I really hope that you guys can talk yourself into exercising, if you are sitting on the fence. Even if you did all of your exercise for the week and you can fit in some more--do it! You will be so glad, and so proud of yourself for doing it! I'm proud of you! YOU'RE A STAR!

I will see you guys tomorrow!

I can do this. I am a star.