Day 166

This morning I got onto the elliptical for 30 minutes.

I have to say I am quite upset. I don't really say much outside of my daily exercise, but I am so mad, I just need to get this off my chest. I am so completely irritated with almost everyone that my son comes into contact with, including but not limited to my father in law, some teachers/instructors, his little friends in AND out of school, their parents, random strangers and random kids that I just want to scream!!

My son is 9 years old. He has such a beautiful and loving soul, and I am so proud of him in all things, but he chose to do something selfless that all these people previously mentioned just don't get, and they are making him regret his decision, which infuriates me. When he decided to do this, we tried to prepare him for the things people would potentially say, but he held strong and said he wouldn't let it bother him, but now 1/2 way into his journey, it's starting to wear on him. He was just in tears because of the things people say to him on a daily basis now. Everyone has an opinion and he is tired and doesn't feel like he should have to defend or explain himself daily, ESPECIALLY to people that already know and have been told multiple times what he's doing and why (*ahem* FIL). Up until now, the encouragement we've given him, had been enough, but he's struggling now and mentally exhausted, ready to throw in the towel.

Last year, we read an article about an 8 year old boy that was so inspired by a St. Jude commercial, that grew out his hair to donate, to make wigs for kids. My sweet boy was so moved by this powerful act of love (his Nana died 3 years ago from cancer and it still stings him) that he said he wanted to do it too. We told him it would be hard and he'd get teased but he said he didn't care and he would be able to handle it. For months we talked about it and he stuck to it.

It's been about a year and now the daily taunts are getting to him. It breaks my heart! I
He's losing sight of why he started this journey and is ready to stop :(.

I told him it was his decision and to sleep on it. I need to sleep on it as well bc I am so mad at all these people right now. Grrrrr....

One day at a time. One choice at a time.

I can do all things in Christ who gives me strength. (I wish he could feel this in his heart the way that I do).