I am selfish...

Today was my day off (have to work again tomorrow) and I got up early to exercise. As soon as I go on the Wii Fit balance board, the Monkey Boy woke up. I had the volume turned all the way down, so he definitely didn't hear it. He just has that, "mommy-selfish-dar," he knows when I am being selfish.

It's so hard to be in "selfish mode" with a toddler around. Yes, exercising is selfish. It totally should be because it's about you and no one else. You may choose to exercise to look pleasing--we don't see ourselves the way others do--literally...we aren't a third person (duh). We may (should) choose to exercise for our health, so that we may be around for generations to come. Any reason, we have to do it ourselves, no one else can do it for us (awe man!).

So because I know now that it's getting hard for me to exercise when The Boy is awake, I am going to tweak my goal. You have to tweak your goals to be successful at them, if you see that no doing so will compromise your success. I still plan to blog/exercise early everyday, but I think putting a 2pm limit on it, is hard. Some days my son doesn't even take a nap until 4pm. I also know that exercising when my hubby is here is A LOT harder, so I think I am going to make his ETA my new goal mark. He usually gets home around 5:30pm. I know if I haven't exercised before he gets home, I resort to squats and/or push ups before bed, when he is already in bed. I think this tweak to my goal is more realistic and will help me to stay successful with the new changes I am trying to incorporate for 2010.

My son took a small nap and I was able to get 32 Wii minutes in on the Wii Fit. I did the skateboarding one and the obstacle course, both, over and over again. I also did an hour of heavy cleaing.

Staying away from sugar is SO MUCH easier at home than it is at work. Home is a controlled environment and I just don't have it here. At work, everyone has it around so it's tough. Today I haven't thought about wanting it at all, so that is good progress. Cutting out the soda has helped me to re-own an old goal of drinking a lot of water a day.

As the fresh beat band sings...it was a great day, the very best day, and nothing could be better.

Make it count!

I can do this. I am a star.

5/370

At least we didn't crash...

Today was so much busier at work than yesterday. We had 5 discharges almost back and then 3 admits almost immediately after. The day went by quickly, which was a blessing both because I was able to finish everything on time and because my body is just so darn tired.

I got home and checked my pedometer to find 4 steps; I left it sitting on my bed. Lovely :). I'm just gonna call it the same as yesterday although I know I walked a heck of a lot more today. All good. I hope I don't forget it again on Wednesday. It makes me so mad when I forget it!

I had a common theme today and it was kinda funny to me--driving at work. Everyone that I transferred in a wheelchair today mentioned my "driving." I guess being a fast walker w/ a wheelchair isn't as fun as I thought it would be? lol. One guy even asked me if I had gotten my license back back from my DUI cause I drive crazy. lol. It's not that bad. (totally joking as I say this next part) You know old people. Everything slows w.a.y. down for them, so they ALL over exaggerated. My response to all of them were pretty much, "at least we didn't crash into anything, right?"

I have tomorrow off, but I have to go back again on Wednesday.

I did good with the sugar and soda although I had HUGE temptation w/ the sugar at work. It was in my face all day and I even went over and started at it for a while. I picked it up and read the ingredients and put it down (first one was "sugar"). A co-worker even teased me for doing that. I'm just glad I was able to push passed it. I really thought for a second I was going to cave. That's all it would have lasted too--a second of fruity-chocolately goodness and a year of guilt.

I am so tired. I fell asleep twice during Heroes, so thank goodness for the DVR.

Off to bed. See you in the morning, hopefully bright and early!

DLTBBB!

I can do this. I am a star.

Short 'n sweet...

Today was a long day and I have to do it all over again tomorrow.

I worked today and am about to jump in the sack. I am exhausted.

Gonna make it short 'n sweet...I walked 14,679 steps (6.95 miles) and did my work thing.

I did well with no sugar/soda today, but there wasn't really any temptation at work. Yaay.

Ok see ya'll tomorrow after work! Take care!

I can do this. I am a star.

So far so good...

I am really making an effort to blog/exercise early. It's not before 2pm, but we have been pretty busy all day. At least I'm blogging at 3:30pm. When I said "before 2pm" on my day off, I know it's something I am going to have to strive for, rather than a "no sugar or soda" or "exercise everyday" type thing. The fact that I am here now, is progress lol.

I just did 30 Wii Fit minutes. My plan was to do more but the hubby is barking at me because we have more errands to run. I will get back on and finish what I started when we get home from the store and my mother's house. I also want to get on the treadmill.

So far so good on the no sugar/soda thing. Soda really isn't a problem for me, so it's kind of a freebie (?). It doesn't bother me like sugar, but it's a good thing to cut out nonetheless. We even went out for breakfast and my first reaction was to order "the same" as my hubby (diet soda) but I remembered and ordered an iced tea instead. Not my fav, but I used some Splenda and a lemon and it was tolerable (lol). I also had whole grain whole wheat pancakes w/ sugar free syrup, turkey bacon and egg whites.

My plan is to lose more weight this year, than I did last, so I am motivated.

I'll update later with what else I do.

Have a great Saturday! Make it count and don't give up on your goals! Just adjust them to make them "doable" and build from there :).

I can do this. I am a star.

2/367

Day one...MUCH easier said than done

Today was a workday and I walked 14275 steps (6.76 miles). About an hour before my shift ended, they asked me to go be a "sitter" with a patient from the ED, who was a major fall risk. Sitting w/ a patient is nice and all because I get a chance to get off of my feet, but it's so boring mainly because you are watching a sleeping patient (sounds creepy, huh?). I took advantage of this time and quickfired some standing side extensions-100 total broken down into 2 groups of 50 AND some seated leg extensions (also 2 sets of 50). TOTALLY proud of myself. Exercisin' at work.

In regards to my new resolution, to cut out sugar--I failed miserably today. It was Day 1, and MUCH easier said than done. Sugar really is a problem for me. I hate to admit that (I feel so stupid!) but it's true. I wasn't even 10 hours into the new year and blew it. My excuse? I forgot. lol. Seriously! Sugar does that to me. It's like beer goggles but with sugar. We had a pot luck at work for the new year and so everyone brought something. I walked into the break room around 10 am this morning, and as I walked in, the room paled, and this bowl in the middle of the table got extremely bright, kind of like heavenly angels were all sitting in that bowl. FUDGE. My immediate response was to eat a piece, which I did. It was sickly sweet (not the kind of sugar I like) and smacked me back into reality. Then I remembered the resolution, felt bad and called my hubby. He laughed. He knows.

I guess that means 364 days of no sugar? It's really going to be a struggle for me. I really pray that God gives me the strength. It's going to be hard with work--there is ALWAYS something sweet there. That's so hard for me. I really thought that with completing 365 days of consecutive exercise, this no sugar thing would be a piece of cake (no pun intended). I was wrong. How does the song go? "If at first you don't succeed, brush yourself off and try again."

I did however have no soda. I don't think the lack of diet soda lessened the sugar cravings though, although I'm not quite sure if it was more sugar reflex or craving. I'm thinking (and hoping) for the first.

Anyway, I think I did enough counting in 2009. I will keep some sort of a running tally at the end of my blogs or something...I don't know, just for me, cause, well, I'm anal.

That's it! I'm off tomorrow so I plan to start fresh and new. Isn't it funny how it's another day, nothing new, same old, same old, yet my brain acts as though it's the start of something new? lol.

Hope you all had a great New Year. Make some goals! They're good for ya!

I can do this. I am a star.

1/366

Day 285 (day 5 / week 40)

Monday, October 12, 2009

It was a workday and I did my typical work routine. Stairs, transfers, etc. I want to be sure to bring my pedometer to work next time so I can see how many steps I have taken throughout the day. I'm curious to see.

I have a lot of sugar temptations at work. Cutting out sugar the first time was easier because I was a SAHM and could control my environment for the most part. This time I can't. It's a lot harder, but I'm sticking to it and holding strong.

Here is a typical work day for me:






















































Look at how strong I am! I passed all of this up for a plain salad with avocado, chicken and grapes in it (minus the guilt!). Sweet!

See you guys later!

have a good day and make it count!

I can do this. I am a star.

Day 283 (day 3 / week 40)

I woke up this morning REALLY sore. I told myself yesterday that I would do the 30DS regardless of how I felt, and I did. I'm glad I did. I am a lot less sore now, than I was when I woke up, but I knew that would be the case if I did it.

Today was day 2 of the 30 day shred and I did level 2. It's a fun level and I like how I am doing this other schedule of it, so everyday seems different. I think that will keep my interest.

As far as the 30 day in a row thing, I am not going to hold myself to that, because of work and other things that I don't have much control over. I can say now, while it's my day off, that I will do the 30DS when I get off of work, but that's much easier said than done. I am, however, going to do 30 days, and will follow the schedule I posted a few days ago. Thirty days is 30 days, no mater how you look at it. I know that I will be doing something physical on the days that I am not doing the 30 day shred, so it's all good.

Day 2 of no sugar is much easier than day 1. Not having the temptations in my own home makes it easy, but my hubby does have 2 candy bars on the kitchen counter, that I am surprisingly not tempted by (yaay!) and we also have chocolate chips/chocolate milk, but those are for the most part for the monkey boy, so I am not tempted by those either. Consistency is definitely the name of the game when it comes to a hard goal like this (this is how it was for me at the beginning of my exercise resolution as well). Each day becomes easier than the day before, and it's like a snowball effect.

I'm secretly excited because my hubby has been interested and has been looking at a Wii Fit. I don't want to seem too excited to him, because I want him to think he's getting it for himself. If I show too much of an interest, we will have gotten it because of me. Then when one of those discussions comes up when I want something (a haircut, exercise video, weights, whatever it may be) he will use it against me and say "well we just got you a ________". lol. If he gets it for himself, we all know who will use it though (ME!). So, I'm hoping we can get it for Christmas, for a present to the family (the monkey boy will like it too). It's coming up pretty quickly!

We have lots of errands to do today, so we will get in a lot of walking. I am going to return the HRM that we bought from Kohl's. My HRM doesn't count the calories for anything below 80ish (my resting HR is pretty low--48-52). It also jumps around and reads inaccurately (I had my arms in the air and it said my HR was 188--so not true) and I think my timex reads better than this New Balance HRM so I will just use what I have for now. *shrugs*

Ok well off to take a shower.

Have a great day! Make it count!

I can do this. I am a star.

Day 282 (day 2 / week 40)

It's bedtime. I have to make it quick because the hubby is getting frustrated.

I committed to the 30 Day Shred yesterday, and 100 days of no sugar, and didn't do 1 of the 2 today, like I said I would. Can you guess which one it is?

I REALLY REALLY REALLY wanted sugar, but I didn't. It was hard, but didn't have any. I even made my son whole wheat honey chocolate chip pancakes, and made enough for 2, but remembered before I made it, that I committed.

I also committed to the 30DS but I am SO sore today. My legs are kicking. I was out of the house by 6:15 this morning driving to Pahrump to get Pebbles spayed, and got home early in the afternoon. The monkey boy took a nap, and so did I (he was up 3 times last night, because his nose was stuffed and he couldn't breathe well--gotta love Vicks vapor rub!). By the time I woke up the hubby was home and Pebbles needed some TLC... the monkey boy doesn't quite understand that she has bo0-boos and can't play with him--exactly what I was afraid of so I have to keep my eye on the little guy (he also keeps trying to force feed her and doesn't understand or refuses to understand that she just can't eat or doesn't want to eat yet after her surgery).

Anyway, as for exercise today, I didn't do the 30DS (boo on me!) but my hubby helped me take advantage of the time/places we were out. We went to go do some errands and went to the Apple store to trouble shoot my phone. We parked in the parking garage, and instead of taking the elevator, my hubby was fine with us taking the stairs. We also we also walked the long way around to get to the stairs, so I got a good workout going up the steep grade (man parking garages are steep!). We also parked pretty far at our 2nd destination, but we always do that. I have also been carrying 15ish lbs of puppy love around all day, as well as a 26lb monkey boy, who was a little jealous and also wanted to be carried. My arms are sore. Anyway, tomorrow, sore or not, I am going to do the 30DS. I know that once I do it, if I am sore or not, I will feel better. I remember that about this DVD. So I guess tomorrow will be day 2.

Hope you all had a great Friday!

Off to bed.

I can do this. I am a star.

Day 281 (day 1 / week 40)

I just finished level 1 of the 30 Day Shred. I am well on my way to being shredded. (lol I crack myself up).

I am honestly kind of surprised that I dusted off that exercise DVD and actually did it (36 minutes including my own extended cool down). My legs are buzzing right now. I am also kind of surprised that Jillian didn't bug me this go around either. I must be growing as a person or something like that, to not let juvenile things bother me like they did before. OR maybe she's growing as a person, and she just learned not to bug me this go round. This is serious stuff. You can't commit to an exercise plan *cough* DVD and be bugged by your trainer. I say this knowing fully well that it's a DVD, and... and well if you didn't get this whole spew, just forget it. It's one of those days and I'm in one of those moods. I heart Jillian. She is good peepz. I really appreciate how committed she is. She knows this is serious stuff (;)). I don't think she bugs me anymore. Until level 2, when she says something about the bathing suit thing (?). lol

I don't know if I mentioned this or not, but I got a new HRM. It was completely unexpected, and my hubby's idea. We were at Kohl's last weekend with the in-laws and he found a New Balance N2 HRM on clearance for $40. It has all of the features I am looking for (Chronology, continuous HR, calories burn as modifiable workout zones). It also has a lock button, so when I am doing push ups, I don't accidentally stop my HRM from recording. It has a different chest strap, and it feels more comfortable for the most part. Today is the first day taht I have taken it for a test spin. It said that in the 36 minutes that I did the 30DS, lvl 1, I burned 261 calories. I can't seem to find anything in any of my previous blogs telling me how many calories I burned doing this back in June (the last time I did the 30DS).

I was going to wait to start the 30 DS, but I keep thinking about a challenge that was set out on the 30DS group on sparkspeople, to do it...but it was the schedule that got me. This is what my plan is, but I really don't know how it's going to happen on work days. I will probably have to make some adjustments, but am going to really give it a college try to do at least one of the 3 levels on my work days:

OK here your challenge...IF YOU DARE.

OCTOBER

1 - Level 1
2 - Level 2
3 - Level 3
4 - Level 1 & 2 Yikes!!!
5 - Level 2 & then 1

6 - Level 3
7 - Level 2
8 - Level 1
9 - ...boo baby! Level 2 & 3
10 - Level 3 & then 2

11 - Level 2
12 - Level 1
13 - Level 3
14 - Level 1 & 3
15 - Level 2, 3 & then 1

16 - Level 1 & 2
17 - Level 2 & 3
18 - Level 2 & 1
19 - Level 2 & 2 again!
20 - Level 1, 3 & then 1

21 - Level 1, 2 & 3
22 - Level 3, 1 & 1 again
23 - Level 3, 2 & 1
24 - Level 3, 3 & 1
25 - Level 3, 2 & 3 IT'S ALIVE!!!!

26 - Level 1
27 - Level 2
28 - Level 3
29 - Level 2
30 - Level 1

31 - HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!! LEVEL 2, 2, 2




For beginners or for those who think this is a bit much...then follow the 30DS the way it was intended. You do Level 1 for 10 days, move onto Level 2 for 10 days and then do Level 3 for the last 10 days.

JUST SO YOU ALL KNOW...I'LL BE TAKING THE 30DS CHALLENGE ALONG WITH MY CURRENT PROGRAM!!! MU HA HA HA HA...I'm anxious to see how this goes.

I think doing it this way will keep me from getting bored. I want to see if I am up to it, so I am gonna try! Today is my "day 1" so I did level 1. Tomorrow level 2 and so forth.

Speaking of commitments, I made a new/old commitment today, which is killing me, which tells me that I am SOOO needing to do this. A spark-friend, posted a blog about a 100 day challenge to not eat sugar. I decided to join the challenge with her. I already had a cookie today, so tomorrow is my official start day, which will make Jan 18 my last day of the challenge. It's one day AFTER my son's 3rd birthday, and I was bummed to think that I am not going to have cake with him, but there are worse things. He could have a really fat/miserable mommy on his birthday stuffing her face with cake, or a happy/fit/healthy mommy who will be happy to pass up the slice. Right now I feel like the first mommy. I know that will pass, and I'm not miserable, but I miss sugar. Already. (this is how I know I have a problem again lol).

Anyway, it will be interesting to see what this month brings. Halloween too!! Yikes! What a scary (no pun intended--well maybe just a little) time to quit sugar! I can totally do this. Both of the challenges! I'm not trying to convince ya'll that I can, but maybe myself a little. I know I can do all things in Christ who gives me the strength to do it though, so I'm set and confident. I can TOTALLY do this. Both of them.

Bye, bye sugar!
Welcome back Jillian!

lol

Tomorrow I have to take Pebbles to get spayed... 8am, almost 1.5 hours away in Pahrump, NV (where the shelter's headquarters are that we got Pebbles from). Please pray for my son, that he will know enough to leave her alone during this time, so she doesn't feel tempted to play and rip her stitches (and for patience for me, to deal with them both). A few years ago my mom's old bf had a dog that had just gotten spayed, and I guess she went and played after she got home, played too hard and her stitches ripped open, and her insides came out. He shot her there on the spot because there was nothing he could do for her. I know this wont happen to Pebbles, but I just really hope my toddler monkey boy leaves her alone and understands us enough to know this is REALLY important to let her heal.

Hope you guys have a great day! Make it count!

I can do this. I am a star.

Day 271 (day 5 / week 38)

I'm exhausted.

Today I did my work thing, walked the stairs, yadda yadda yadda.

In the past few days I have been realizing that I think I need to cut sugar out of my diet again. I just think about it waay too much, and am getting to the "bad place" with it again. It's for the better, but this is not to say that I am giving it up easily. I had 2 or 3 tantrums today. They brought cookies to work. And ice cream. And chocolate covered, chocolate chip biscotti's. *cry*

Off to bed. I'm uber-tired.

Make tomorrow count!

I can do this. I am a star.